Random Letter on Tuesday from the person this Blog isn't suppose to be about

To
Veronica
and To
Andrew
A record of understanding

Cara
this book is one of six i have given to people of varying importance in my life
the idea is that we can respond to each others letters within the same journal
i have decided to do this because there are many people whom i claim to know yet when i really ask myself i have to say"do i really know them?"
i have chosen to a written format for a couple of reasons, the first of which is that i feel it is much more personal than the more mediated forms of communication which we have available in these days
the second is that i realized i had all but forgotten how to write, relying on computers to do most of my thinking and talking for me
and what better way to re-learn how to write than to write
lastly i feel there can be questions or topics which just do not come to mind in face to face communication this is a way in which we may be able to truly see into each others hearts minds and lives
I encourage you to use this to ask or tell me about anything-under the sky I want it to be completely open ended
I have chosen you, who was my lover for 3 years and probably the best girlfriend i have ever had for this because we shared many fond memories together which i do not wish to cloud with the retarded ending or our relationship which i put you through
i also feel as though i have a lot to explain, and i hope to do so if you will lend your eyes to read these words
towards the end i felt as though i barely knew you
a fact which i blame myself for
my only hope in this with you is that we can use it to forge a lasting friendship as there are many aspects of our relationship i would still see worth saving
if you wish i will share our written dialogue with not a soul but my own
these pages are intended for you and I alone
however i put no such stipulation on my own words
feel free to share them with whomever you please
my words and thoughts are for any and all
to read
My name is Andrew
i was your lover for three years
and i hope to still be your friend: i work for a data hosting company called the planet in Dallas i enjoy my work but sometimes it can be exhausting
the last couple of months have been filled with immense spiritual, intellectual, emotional and physical changes in my life
i remitted some time after how terrible i had been to you and for that i am truly sorry
i hope at least a small part of you will want to read these words and even more so find it in your heart to forgive me and work with me to come to a better understanding of each other
for this entry i will leave it open ended please ask me anything you like tell me a story anything
be as verbose or as terse as you wish
however if it is your will and this does not interest you at all please feel free to send me no response
i do not wish to impose the expectation of a response only do so if you really want to
hope you're doing well-Andrew

I have no words for this